by Ray
(Maryland)
My story is too long to type in sentences. Read my short hand please. Married over 25years, 28yr to exact. Kids - 9 Problem started and kids told me first.
Said wife was on phone in closet. I asked her was all ok. She said yes. I asked her if there was someone else. No. Continued. She started talking on phone outside of house, in back yard.
I started checking phone calls on line. 100s to same number, by same number. Like clock work.
Daughter found voice mail. Showed me. Said my wife's name and his name. I love you, will knock something loose when you come over Monday. Wife said it was wrong number.
More voice mails. I love you, you love me? Wrong number. No sex between me and my wife. She slept with clothes on fully dressed.
I took daily notes. Checked panties with checkmate many times. Positive for semen. Many times. Sent panties to a DNA specialist.
Positive for semen. Wife said no way. Said it was from me. I never touched her. She left me and my kids. I have them. Full custody. Have had them for over 4 years. Just me.
I asked her to come back. She said never. She don't trust me and never will. She said she put the semen in the panties. I said no way because she never knew when I was checking,plus,I checked for a course of two years.
What idiot is even going to give someone semen to put in panties. I knew the panties were hers too, because she changed every time before she went to work.
I waited every time. I had to have the truth. My question? Why can't I convince myself she is lying to the point that I really don't care who she sees, if she ever will come back and also move on with life.
I am so depressed even after I finally gave in and gave her the divorce she wanted. How do I just move on with out being bitter and ready to blow the guy's brains out or anyone I see her with?