Tit for Tat???? - His Cheating Gave Me a Free Pass

by Ana
(Los Angeles, CA)

My husband and I have been married for almost 4 years now. He has cheated on me since we have been married twice that I know about. Once was more of an emotional affair and the most recent time was sex twice with the same person.

I was enraged by thought of both of these and contemplated divorce very seriously after the most recent affair. We separated, I saw a lawyer and weighed my options.

About a year and a half ago (after marriage counseling) we reunited and I got pregnant with our first child who is now 6 months old. I have never cheated on him in the 6 years we have been together, but thought about it each time I found out he had cheated on me - and a weekend in Vegas with my girlfriends brought the perfect opportunity.

It was the first time I had left my son and I was not planning on cheating on that trip by any means, but of course the no-strings-attached mentality in Vegas makes it very easy to cheat. I always knew that if I cheated, it would be with someone worth it, not just some random loser.

I met "Christian" at a club that he had a VIP table at. He was extremely charming, well dressed, handsome, rich and we held a conversation very easily. The fact that he was smart and intelligent after getting to know him a little bit was the thing that really attracted me to him.

He knew I was married with a child, but still made a move and kissed me at the club and I did not stop him. I actually really liked it. That night we went back to his hotel room and there was no sex involved, we just talked and kissed a lot and I spent the night. The second day in Vegas we talked all throughout the day and made plans to meet up again after we hung out with our friends.

That night in his hotel room we talked some more and had sex and I spent the night again. We decided that we wouldn't pursue anything further with each other after I left and we'd go back to our normal lives. We made the decision not to keep in contact. It felt like something out of "Fifty Shades of Grey" without the super kinky sex! He was my real life Christian Grey.

I feel guilty at times, but I also feel as though I would have never have cheated unless my husband cheated first. I will never tell my husband because I do love him and my son. I have told one of my best friends about the experience and she described it as my "free pass". What do you think???